Saturday, January 24, 2009

My Father


My Father

The sound of the rain outside penetrates inside the warmness of the house...The smell of rainy seasons rose high to the air...and create sleepiness. She just realized that the rainy seasons is here..beating out the angry face of the sun. She looked at her old father, he just went to sleep again...As she waited him taking his lunch just now, she felt a little bid sad to see how old he is now...and the memory of her childhood spilled all over her thought...She always thought that her father is the most handsome father in the worlds,And he is the one she love most cause they have somany things in common.He used to take her to Gramedia so that she can buy the Famous Five book He will take her in his jeep and one particular day, she bought an ice cream and messed his car all over, but he never complained. He used to teach her English, till she want to cry cause there are additional assignment apart from the one from School. A week in December for no aparent reason, she decided to spend a week in her hometown and dedicated all her time to take care of her father, and she has a marvelous time, laughing with him, bossing him around to take a bath or to eat, laughing along with him and her niece....

A week after that she flew to Singapore. She vividly remembered one night, while she is watching tv with her best friend, she suddely saw his father face before her.. as if he is really there, she can see his smiling, he look younger and happier, then suddenly she told her best friend, she does not feel good I think something happen to her dad, and she feels a chill suddenly wrapped around my body. That was the day he fall off his bed, and the last ilness that caught him.

Then two months passed, she remembered it vividly, she has changed to her Pjs and sit in her sitting room watching Atonement, the only movie that she could only finish almost a week thereafter, cause as she watch the tragedy in the movie happening to ruin the life of two people, her phone rang it was her sister telling her that her father is suddenly in coma at home, that they are calling ambulance. She hang up the phone and loss all the strenght she posses, and look blankly at the tv, she sit like that for about ten minutes, then something struct her heart, she knew that her father’s gone forever, leaving her behind. She started to cry as the tears fall of her eyes she heard the phone rang, it was her sister in law telling her things she already know. After that everything is so blurred, she remembered to take off the sheets over her father silent face and she started to cry again, and later in the morning, she wash the face of her father for the last time before he buried next to her mother. She remembered looking at his father face, as death swallow him, his face is different, he is not the same anymore cause what was left was only an empty sheel..an empty body....after looking at his face, she no longer cry cause she knew he has gone somewhere else, and the last thing he would want her was to cry over his lifeless body.  

January 24,09, one year after my father died 

 

A poem wrote by my father

Yang Akan Ikut Pergi Nanti

Kenapa tak kau manfaatkan

   Kesempatan yang ada selama ini

Aku juga sering bertanya

   Pada diriku sendiri

Kenapa?

Karena ada yang mentertawakanku

          Ada pula yang mencemooh

          Bahkan ada yang menyesali

         Jadi engkau sendiri sangsi

          Atas segala yang kau alami

Sukar juga menjawabnya

Kenapa?

Karena masalahnya tidak perlu dipersoalkan

Kenapa?

Karena tidak ada permasalahan

          Baik dengan kamu

          Maupun dengan hamba

          Dan dengan siapapun

Jadi?

Biarlah ku simpan sendiri

          Ku renungkan sendiri

          Segala suka dan dukanya

          Sebagai suatu kenangan

          Yang akan ikut pergi nanti

          Bersama roh ku.

 

Alimoeddin,

12 April 1986, Subuh 5.00